On Depression

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Caroline Myss recently posted the following on FB:

I spent part of my evening listening to the news reports about the suicide of Robin Williams, as I am sure many of you did. Like the death of Phillip Seymour Hoffman, we are left wondering how it is that yet another successful, famous individual could also be in so much pain that he would become addicted to drugs.

The media gathered its experts to offer their opinions on why they thought Williams ended his life but how would they know? They spoke on and on about depression and alcoholism, as apparently Williams openly discussed his struggles with both of these inner demons.

Williams, as we all know, is yet another celebrity suicide – hardly the first. Many people commit suicide these days. It’s practically an epidemic within the military. And look at the number of young people who end their lives these days. It’s astounding.

Unlike all these experts who credit depression as the root cause or being bullied at school, I find such explanations inadequate. It’s obvious that these individuals are coping with depression but who hasn’t cycled through a depression in life?

No one is happy or clear about their life or surrounded by love and safety all the time, though depression is certainly a suffering that extends well beyond the measure of whether a person is all the above.

Depression is also a chemical suffering. A person often needs more than depression to consider ending his or her life – emphasis on the word “often”.

Depression is a leading cause of suicide – we know that. Depression is also complex and has degrees of intensity, though this is not the place for me to write extensively about this subject. Suffice to say that every one familiar with depression – either because they are coping with it or because they are living with someone suffering with it – knows that it can grip you for a month or it can be a lifetime nightmare.

My brother suffered with depression, mixed it with alcohol and ultimately died from both. I’ve lived with depression and addiction through the life of my brother and our family. I know depression is a suffering – I know it all too well.

When clinical depression merges with a spiritual crisis, that’s when the psyche loses its capacity to breath, to remain connected to the life force in any vital way. A crisis of the spirit – of the soul – shatters one’s connection to purpose and meaning, to feeling hope itself.

We have grown increasingly complex over these past decades, focusing more and more on the world behind our eyes as much if not more than the world in front of our eyes. We have awakened intuitive, emotional, and numerous other senses, all of which have animated our psychic boundaries in ways previously unknown to human nature. Suffice to say that many of the sufferings of the mind are not just a product of one’s personal life but of not realizing the full extent of one’s own energetic nature.

I know nothing at all about Robin Williams other than seeing a few of his films and some of his stand up comic routines on television. But I gathered from those stand up routines that he was a man who paid attention to the events going on in this world. His satire took aim at political folly and global-sized problems, asking which was worse, the problems or the problem-solvers?

In other words, Williams had his finger on the pulse of world events. He may well have had everything that money could buy, except solutions to these predicaments that plagued his soul.

I am merely speculating, you understand, but he was not a shallow man. He was a thinker, a man whose art demanded he pay attention to what mattered to people. He was also by his own admission an addict and perhaps even bi-polar – who knows. But those diagnoses do not diminish his capacity to observe the world around him; indeed, as I have witnessed with many people who battle mental and emotional sufferings, some of their pain is rooted in their astute powers of observation and not just from their personal lives.

All pain is not personal.

A spiritual crisis can look like depression. It has many of the same inner sufferings, but the differences are very profound.

Unfortunately we cannot ask a suicide victim any of the essential questions that would help one discern whether he is suffering from clinical depression or experiencing a spiritual crisis.

Let me offer this prayer for all those who are coping with depression,

“My prayer on this day is that [you] receive the graces of hope and fortitude during this time in [your] life. Help [you] to make it through those moments when [you] feel like giving up. Hover over [them], God, with guidance through [their] thoughts and through [their] dreams.”

Note from Emanita01: As the above prayer was written in the first person, I took the liberty of changing it to the third person. So, the italicized words are my modifications.


About emanita01

I am a Franco-american woman who hails from Massachusetts. I live in France near the Swiss border, only minutes away from Geneva. I am a member of the Geneva Writers Group and the Association La Forge, a literary group based in France. I write stories, poems and am currently working on a couple of plays, a one-woman show and actively learning how to perform stand-up comedy.
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